Some things are hidden for now in a mist. Construction is still underway. What is being built, you can manifest. Dreaming. Who asks if I still love her? Do you want an answer? Of course, but on a soul level. No longer on a worldly level. That is past. I give an answer—here it is. I no longer want to fight. I no longer want to struggle. And by not fighting but extending my hand to you, the struggle is no longer necessary. Then we can work together. I don’t need control. I want freedom. That is all I wish for. No more violence. But freedom, equality, and brotherhood. Then I am not just on a ship but also sailing it into a safe harbor. I give you my strength. You give me your power. Then we are on the right path. Dear part of me. Fighting is no longer necessary. Surrender. The reward is your freedom. There is help. Accept that help and do not be proud. Only our love is stronger than death. That is what safeguards us.

I climb the mountain. Higher knowledge and spiritual awareness are what I seek. But I am definitely looking to rediscover my true strength. To find what drives me and where I want to go. Climbing on my own, and now the weather is nice. The sun smiles at me. But the higher and closer to the top, the heavier it can get. But then I must keep going. Because giving up is not an option. After my earlier experience with higher dimensions within myself, I crave more. So, I ascend again. The sun smiles at me. I feel strong and invincible. But unfortunately, there are people around me who only want things from me. Mostly money. They suck and pull at me. They want to use me for their own purposes. But I won't be lured into that. Because I am demonized, but when I am needed, I must stand there and be expected to give. Unconditionally and without asking questions. But I will no longer be used. I now say no. I don't want to be blamed for everything. I have been in the valley for a long time, where I didn't know where the light was. The best decision ever was the decision for my own happiness. I have no regrets about that. The higher I climb that mountain, the more I will encounter them. I set my boundaries. Sometimes silently and sometimes politely. And when they hear my vision of the truth? Then I get backlash. Because they don't want that vision. They want that feather in their cap.

As a large tree with many branches and a thick trunk, fed from the roots that penetrate deep into the ground and draw nourishment, the higher the tree will grow in scope and wisdom. Without this grounding, the tree will topple under its own weight. The elegance and beauty that reflect its own growth. The connectedness and reaching towards higher dimensions grounded in Mother Earth. Spirituality grounded in stable roots and a thick trunk in green. The connection of the heart with above and below. With inside and outside. With low and high in perfect balance. The columns that are an expression of spiritual growth and determination. The temples in ancient Greece were built this way. The columns looked very similar. Creativity in natural elegance built by humans. The tree rooted in the earth, living and vibrant, reaching to the clouds. Stable and in balance.

Subtle oppression that I cannot tolerate and resist. I am not afraid of tyranny. I see death as transformation. By having no fear, I remove the stone from the tower of oppressive power that tries to keep us down with control and violence. By going into quiet resistance and walking away, their tower collapses like a house of cards. By continuing my own path, such energy, no matter how dark, can never touch me. Others notice the tools I possess and garner appreciation. However, the jealousy grows larger. Others tell me to just follow and not engage in quiet resistance. However, I do what I want and no longer tolerate it. Their only weapons are sowing fear and violence. But that is also their Achilles' heel. By exposing my strength, it is noticed and appreciated. However, it also triggers the demons that try to make us believe we are powerless. They will notice. There is a power within me that is invincible. The same power that others also have. Those who wield power in such a manner will reap the fruits of abuse and violence. The sword comes back to those energies like a boomerang. Thankfully, there is plenty of support and I have many allies. The lion roars and the wolf howls. The power of wild nature always prevails.

Those qualities, dear Artemis, with on one side loyalty and unconditional love, and on the other side playfulness but also flexibility, independence, and fierceness, they play with each other. They dance around each other. A symbol of independence from any bond, except loyalty to one’s own soul. A beautiful blonde friend. An ally. A guide for me, teaching me to balance both sides of the circle. How much do I actually know? What is learned and what is innate? Am I following a truth? Do I dare to let go of all dogmas, including spiritual ones? To start blank. Like a child. Learning. Discovering. Shooting my bow at everything that moves. Or listening closely to you, Artemis, and freely and joyfully reaching myself, through listening and acting as my heart tells me, like a whisper of the morning breeze. Blonde, fair Artemis, I would like to learn the lessons at your feet that I need to grow as a child. My mother, my muse, and friend. My master and guide. So that I can hunt with my own bow. And bring light where it is needed.

The right path is the one that resonates with you. Whether it's non-duality or a dualistic path. If what you do gives you energy, it doesn't matter what you believe—or don't believe. Which God you follow—or don't follow. It's about feeling happy, enjoying what you do. That each day becomes a new challenge, to do it differently than yesterday and tomorrow. You're not here to mourn. Unless that's your life's goal. It's perfectly fine to have fun, be joyful, and have a great time. Go on vacation and have a blast. If that resonates with you, why not? Some may say it's not spiritual. Well, let me tell you something. Being spiritual means living according to your passion. Doing what resonates with your deepest self. Others cannot tell you what that is. Only you can. Spirituality is about having experiences, the ones you agreed upon for this life. And that is different for everyone. No one can tell you what to believe or which guru to follow. There is only one guru, and that is within you.

The Self is intangible and elusive. But we know and feel that the Self exists. It is Chi that brings order and vitality within. The Self is beyond space and time as we know it. It is not created and has always existed and will always exist. It is the Alpha and Omega. Remote and dark, and yet light. Beyond the dualistic terms of dark and light. How do I know it exists? Can I see it? Can the eye through which you look at the world see itself? Yet you know that you have an eye that takes in information and lets it be interpreted by the brain, creating a perspective on what you perceive. So, the next question is: what is reality? Is it what is presented to you filtered, or the information that falls outside the filter? That which the mind cannot perceive.

Our attention is directed towards others. What they have. What they know and what views they hold. See how the mark is missed then. Is it so important to compare myself to others? To remain in a victim role. Giving energy to what you think you lack and not to what you can and have already achieved? The focus should be on ourselves. By looking outside, we avoid looking in the mirror. I am indeed different from other people. And I cherish that. What others think of that is not my problem and not worth my energy. Spiritual candy out there brings no self-knowledge. You are important. Otherwise, you wouldn't have come here. So, look at ourselves. Discover for ourselves. Create for ourselves. Learn for ourselves. Travel for ourselves. Make mistakes ourselves and not blame the circumstances. Correct the mistakes ourselves and learn from them. Not let others solve them.

Letting go of control over the outcome of the work I do. Allowing the Universe to do its work and trusting that the right words will reach the right people at the right time and place. Even though most people are engaged in spiritual candy. Letting go of the result. I know this, but my ego mind construct finds recognition so appealing. But is that really important? The work is done and forgotten, but it always remains. And this is the first law of thermodynamics. Energy, and thus mental energy, is always conserved. The first law of thermodynamics is the law of energy conservation in physics. It's funny that a text thousands of years old refers to a law in physics that we are only now beginning to understand.

I embarked on a new path several years ago after a period of darkness and living within the ego mind construct. I receive guidance and am led towards a path of self-discovery and transformation. I experience an unexpected harmony and acceptance of these dualistic movements within me that create reality. It is a rediscovery and remembering of beauty and creativity in the light that had been deeply buried within me. An independent part of myself takes the lead. It supports me in taking the first steps towards living on my own, emerging from a situation of emotional outbursts, manipulation, and underlying tensions. The sudden calm and silence around me feel like a warm sea. However, I am suddenly confronted with myself, such as old avoidance strategies and behavioral patterns. But I find my way back—the path to who I truly am, not who others expect me to be. I rediscover that foundation where the past, present, and future seemingly unfold simultaneously. The city of light serves as a guide for the wandering and seeking soul to reach the vast sea, where natural obstacles must be climbed, enabling me to grow to great heights. The goal is to realize that I am one with the sea, to understand that the sea lives within me, and that it is an illusion to believe that what I see is the only reality. It is my independence that plays with me—my independence without external control. A revaluation of my inner strength, immersing myself in the sea and becoming one with it. Overcoming obstacles that compel me to feel the emotions. There is no time for retreat because to ensure my safety, I must dive into the water. There is no buffer here; no experience with feeling because it was always avoided by me. I will learn that everything has a cycle—beauty and solitude vibrating with life. Yes, I will feel lost in the deep sea into which I have fallen, but it is precisely this immersion that proves my resilience to rediscover and stabilize myself by confronting unconscious parts within me.

Letting go of control and flowing with the natural current of my being. There is no need to force things, as the images come at their own time and place. Amidst tumult and chaos, I remain firmly anchored in my Chi field. My feet are connected to the electromagnetic field of our mother planet, enabling me to sway with every storm that comes and has been. By letting go of control, the stem does not break. The bus, despite its dangerous ride, grounds me on the seat I sit on. I seek balance between action and rest, between being and doing. The principle of polarity. Extremes connected by a narrow middle path in between. My view of the river of life. Observing and staying within my field. Seeing how the earth is robbed of its treasures, but beyond these dark hills, the sun shines and the forest is green and fresh. I experience joy in this transition period I find myself in. Placing myself more and more consciously in the moment. Savoring the smell of the forest and the melancholy of falling leaves. I am learning to listen to others who live life differently than I do. Collaborating and seeing now that spirituality is often used as a form of escapism. But true spirituality encompasses all facets. Dark and light. Big and small. Beautiful and ugly. Though such labels are merely perspectives on the same thing. Ultimately, we are all children of our own hearts. Sometimes I feel like this is all a big game. Learning how to become the actor instead of Super Mario. For aren’t all goals and aspirations captured in our quest to find meaning in existence here? Everything we possess eventually becomes the possession of others. I am who I am. Without time and without a clock. I want to stay, I shout there. But I am exactly where I need to be. Until I am needed elsewhere again.

"My whole family is gathered, but there is no place for me. I withdraw and take a seat outside this group after wandering here and there. Everywhere and nowhere. The place where I settle is not very stable and wobbles a bit. Then I see a spot open up and settle in the group that calls itself family but of whom I hardly know anyone. There are also some acquaintances I know, but they don't know me, and with one, it feels familiar. It reminds me of long-forgotten times in which I no longer recognize myself."

"It is autumn, and it seems a time of silence and relaxation, but it carries the promise of decisions being made. The expected end date is the beginning of spring. The realization that we have discovered islands that are connected to each other. Without even realizing it ourselves. We know where we are though. Despite it taking so long in linear time. I enter the temporary place of rest. But that cycle is almost over. To reach spring, we first have to go through winter. It is what it is. Let winter and cold come. Because the promise of a new spring is already looming. Where the sun sets, it simply rises on the other side. Every cycle comes to an end. And harbors a new beginning. Feel that connection and I see the secret. Also, the fear of cold and darkness disappears. There is no doomsday scenario unless we create it ourselves."

"Sometimes, while creating something new on your path, you might make a mistake. You don't have to be too hard on yourself for that. Stay in observation mode and choose your freedom. Instead of forcefully closing the exit, find a small gap to remain playful and conserve your energy."

"Playing children in an initially closed container containing paper waste. Ready to be recycled. I have an idea of how the process works and find myself in that container with waste paper. I see that emotional energy seeps in. However, I am given an explanation that it seems like leakage, but it is actually intended for emotion to pass through the carefully made cracks. The intention is not to completely seal the space. The system is based on allowing measured amounts of emotion to be present in the container, thereby increasing the experience of dealing with it and providing more insight. Innocent pure energy that can and may play with it. The environment that makes us believe this is not allowed. The fear that seeps into the playfulness like poison. Passed on by the ignorant system. With the new insights, it becomes lighter around me. The darkness that was there is disappearing. Returning to the origin. Where it all began. Quickly going inside at the sight of a recurring conflict. Not wanting to participate or identify with what I observe. I decide to distance myself from the violence and the energy impression it causes. I use the key to open the door within myself and enter the energy that has always made me feel most at home. Myself. Where this conflict between seemingly self-losing adults takes place in a place you wouldn't expect. Knowing that this is a recurring conflict that seems to be in a pattern. But a conflict where I feel like an outsider."

"I flee from danger as I always have. Avoiding and retreating into my own bubble. I notice the various styles and decorations that people give to their lives. But I see no one. The masks in various forms and styles are there. But I miss the person behind them. What is seen is the outside. Where are we behind it? And who are we behind it? If I see no one, the question is, do they  see me? Or just a masquerade put on by the great protector who helped us survive our youth. Can those masks come off now? Is it safe now?"

"In the midst of the gray surroundings, there is a plant with a budding flower. The promise of a new spring emerging amid all the grayness. The promise of a colorful future that will dissolve all the grayness into a sea of color. The past, as gray as it has been. With all our misunderstandings and the realization that things could not continue as they were, we all had to descend the long staircase into the depths. To find our way back again. Just as the hydrangea blooms again and the surroundings will flourish once more into their original sea of colors and a creative explosion of growth."

"I comfort you and dry your tears. As you admit and have sorrow because you had a preference for the other. I know how this comes. As you are not emotionally gifted and could never feel who I am. Because you did not love yourself, you could not possibly love me. I comfort you and dry your tears. As you have not been able to dream and thus could not take my dreams seriously. The time for remorse is over. Go on without me and follow your own path. Dry your tears for you were forgiven before you started weeping. Doing your best has been enough. And you did. Remove that burden from your shoulders as I have already taken it upon myself. There was a time when I felt alone. But that time is long gone. I thank you for what I have learned. And I thank you for being both my pupil and my master."

By thinking creatively and out of the box, you find the right connection. Even if it means walking barefoot. So, daring to be vulnerable and taking the risk. Many things in our culture are programmed. For example, monogamy is taught by others who learned it from others. But as humans, don’t we have free will and decide for ourselves how and when we connect with others?

The process in which unfounded assumptions lead to a conviction obtained unlawfully. Driven by fear, the system creates a false trial. The person is driven to reclaim their own freedom, to step out of the wheel and declare their sovereignty. Convicted but remaining innocent. Those who cannot control or condemn him keep trying but always find failure. For the spark of freedom in his soul cannot be grasped. No matter how the lawless, oppressive wheel of Das System turns. The unjust mill is on its way to its own destruction. Like any system that runs on deceitful and deluded regulations.

Letting go of the new spiritual paradigm. Letting go and daring to feel what you genuinely think about something. Not what you are supposed to think in the group you are in. Is it so important that everyone is on the same page? Blindly following what a doctrine tells you is true? Usually borrowed from a higher power or energy. But do you know through which filter this goes? Dare to follow your own intuition. Not the cards someone lays out and then reads from a booklet what they mean. No, feel the symbolism and colors in those cards. Not with your head. But with your heart. Pay attention to what comes into what you call your own thoughts. And feel. Feel if it resonates with something deep inside yourself. Then you have the right message. There is no intermediary needed to have contact with your own soul. With Source. Sorry, this might cause mediums and expensive therapists to lose money. But you have your own connection. The kingdom is within you. Others are signposts. But it is all within yourself. Again, you do not need an intermediary to have contact with Source. You are Source. A co-creator.

There are changes in my life path that I have no control over. There is a delay happening beyond my control. There are external factors, and because of this, I cannot meet the goals I have set for my work on time. This presents me with a choice that also involves a challenge. The change of route is communicated, but I am not able to receive it properly. This is due to the noise and distractions around me. As a result, it is difficult for me to concentrate, and I initially ignore the message. Eventually, after some effort, I do receive the message. I can choose to return to where I came from, and that could be a wise move. Not to ignore this and to integrate it into myself. I would be on the road longer because I would have to start the journey again from where I began. And that is not really in my character. I can also choose to follow the path of my family, especially the family with whom there is no contact. To become like them again. However, this would cause much more delay, especially because I am not where I think I am. I assume there are all sorts of obstacles and challenges that are not there. Once again, I have listened too much to my rational mind and not my intuition.  I will be surprised because my life path will take an entirely unexpected destination. Someone important will unexpectedly come into my life. This has also been told to me from the outside, and this person has found their own way internally, that idea. But it will be a surprise to which I will react very calmly. As if I know this and it is very normal for it to happen. However, internally it is a surprise because I do not know it at all. It is an unconscious process. I have the capacity to adapt to this new situation that will arise. So, overall, whatever unexpected change comes, there is always a way to adapt.

You can fail one thousand times and take detours. But the 1001st time is the right path to success. That is the hardworking person. Not expressed in money, but in determination. In working on ourselves when no one believes in it anymore. Believing in yourself with all you `re might. In your own abilities when everyone throws their crap on your shoulders. You get blamed for everything. You get ostracized. To then say to yourself, “I believe in you.” I make this dream come true. I only give up when I have won. This game is not over before then. This is why I came here and I won’t leave until it’s done.

The sun sets and gives the sky the most beautiful colors. But the light does not disappear. Night does not fall, but it remains light. So, it is within us. The cycle of time continues. Because the sun will rise again. No matter how dark it can seem sometimes. There is always that inner light that allows the outer light to do its work. But will not eclipse us. Continues to enlighten us.

Vibration in a certain frequency affects water. By sending energy into matter with a targeted intention, you can impose your will on it. This money for targeted thought power or sending energy with intention to people where you can then exert influence with a specific goal. Affects their energy field and physical body. In fact, that's what energy healing like Reiki is. And Tachyon too. Matter such as water and solid matter are made up of photons that can be influenced by high-frequency energy. There is a fine dividing line regarding the above. Because it is the intention with which you direct your message that makes it positively or negatively charged. Constructive or destructive. And through Entanglement everything is connected. The influence I exert on something can give the same reaction on the other side of the universe in a star, for example. Everything influences each other.